BTS's Jungkook Opens Up About How He Cried On Stage Because He Blamed Himself For His Injury

BTS‘s Jungkook poured his heart out to his fans on a live broadcast, where he discussed the events surrounding his heel injury that occurred right before their London concert.

“I’m hosting a live broadcast because I wanted to share what’s been on my mind today.

I think if I don’t talk about what I’ve been thinking recently then it’ll keep bugging me from the back of my mind. That’s why I’m here.”

— Jungkook

Jungkook was really excited to perform at their first concert in Europe, and everything seemed to be going great. He was in the best condition, his family came to see him, and everything pointed towards being the best night of his life.

“It was our first concert in Europe so I was really excited for it. I was really excited for it because it was our first time showing you guys.

We were doing well in our Tour… my parents actually came to watch on the day I got injured. My condition was great in the morning too. I felt like we were going to do really well in our performances. I was full of energy from the morning. It felt like it was going to be the best day ever.”

— Jungkook

After their rehearsals, Jungkook was warming up his body and vocals when he accidentally hit his heel on a furniture. At first, he didn’t think it was a big deal until he realized that the injury was greater than he initially thought.

“We finished our rehearsal and we had to shower to start preparing. I wanted to get my body and my vocals warmed up before I showered, so I was exercising and warming up. I was too vigorous in my warming up and I hit something.

At first my heel felt like the times when you jam your pinky toe on a chair or a door. Do you know how that feels like? At first, it was only a little bit more painful than that. I didn’t know at first. I thought I just collided with it… but the scar was pretty deep.”

— Jungkook

His initial response was to perform on stage no matter what. But he soon realized that performing today may hinder him from performing for the rest of the World Tour.

“The first thought I had was, ‘This probably won’t hinder me from performing, right?’ Because I had highly anticipated this day. But I am a performer and an artist, so I couldn’t help but become emotional about it.

I really wanted to stand on stage even after the injury because it was our first European concert. I tried to get up on stage no matter what but I realized it wasn’t a problem where I should only be thinking emotionally – we had other upcoming concerts.”

— Jungkook

Although he couldn’t dance with the rest of the members, Jungkook sang his parts while sitting down. During their encore performance, Jungkook couldn’t help but shed tears as he blamed himself for the injury.

“I did get up on stage though. That day was just so hectic. The other members were dancing while I sat apart only singing, and I couldn’t focus well on the first day.

I regretted it, and I blamed myself. I wondered, ‘Why did I exercise then? What if I had worn shoes? This wouldn’t have happened.’ I had a lot of thoughts run through my head.

During the encore, we sang really bright songs like ‘So What?’ and ‘Anpanman’. But I got really sad because I couldn’t perform it. So I eventually cried. Even during that time, I was very embarrassed because no matter how sad and frustrated I am, I shouldn’t have shown it on stage. Looking back on it now, I feel embarrassed that I couldn’t control my emotions.”

— Jungkook

He apologized to the fans in London, and vowed to return again with an even better performance.

“Even during the second day, I couldn’t adapt well. The concert went well, and I was happy to see everyone, but I couldn’t focus well. That’s why I feel sorry and apologetic towards the fans in London.

I want to come back again to show you something even better than what I had prepared.”

— Jungkook

After the dust had settled, Jungkook took the time to reflect on what happened. He realized that his situation wasn’t something to be depressed over but a lesson to be learned.

“After all of it happened, I took some time to think to myself – to calm myself. I meditated. I realized that I still have a long way to go. I think all of this was another step in my life that will help me become more mature. Let bygones be bygones. I think the answer is to do the best that I can at what I’m doing now.

The more I thought about it, I realized that I shouldn’t be so concerned about it. I just need to enjoy where I am right now and give positive vibes to my members. If I can’t dance, than I should give my 100% through vocals. The answer was to just do my best in that situation.”

— Jungkook

He even found a positive side to not being able to dance on stage. He realized that there were lessons to be learned in his vocal training that he wouldn’t have seen if he continued to dance.

“There were more negative parts about it than positive, but there was one good aspect of my incident. I didn’t have a lot of vocal lessons before. I would just sing, listen to myself, sing a long, and practice in that way.

When you’re standing still, you can focus on your vocals better. But when you’re dancing, it’s hard to focus on your vocals. I was able to experiment more and focus on my singing because I was sitting down during the concerts. That was the good part of the whole incident.”

— Jungkook

At the end of the day, Jungkook thanked the fans for all of their support and told them not to worry. The Golden Maknae will be just fine!

“You guys don’t have to worry. I’m okay. I’m still young so I’m healing well. So don’t worry, everyone.”

— Jungkook

Read Jungkook’s full story below:

“I’m hosting a live broadcast because I wanted to share what’s been on my mind today.

A lot has happened recently. Everything’s been complicated… my feelings… and the upcoming concert… I had a lot to think about.

I think if I don’t talk about what I’ve been thinking recently then it’ll keep bugging me from the back of my mind. That’s why I’m here.

There’s not much left of the Tour now. We just have to finish it well and go back.

After I got injured, we had our concerts in Europe. It was our first concert in Europe so I was really excited for it. We were preparing for the tour alongside our promotions. I was really excited for it because it was our first time showing you guys.

We were doing well in our Tour… my parents actually came to watch on the day I got injured. My condition was great in the morning too. I felt like we were going to do really well in our performances. I was full of energy from the morning. It felt like it was going to be the best day ever.

We finished our rehearsal and we had to shower to start preparing. I wanted to get my body and my vocals warmed up before I showered, so I was exercising and warming up. I was too vigorous in my warming up and I hit something.

At first my heel felt like the times when you jam your pinky toe on a chair or a door. Do you know how that feels like? At first, it was only a little bit more painful than that. I didn’t know at first. I thought I just collided with it… but the scar was pretty deep.

The first thought I had was, ‘This probably won’t hinder me from performing, right?’ Because I had highly anticipated this day. But I am a performer and an artist so I couldn’t help but become emotional about it. I really wanted to stand on stage even after the injury because it was our first European concert. I tried to get up on stage no matter what but I realized it wasn’t a problem where I should only be thinking emotionally – since we had other upcoming concerts.

I did get up on stage though. That day was just so hectic. The other members were dancing while I sat a bit apart only singing, and I couldn’t focus well on the first day.

I regretted it, and I blamed myself. I wondered, ‘Why did I exercise then? What if I had worn shoes? This wouldn’t have happened.’ I had a lot of thoughts run through my head.

During the encore, we sang really bright songs like ‘So What?’ and ‘Anpanman’. But I got really sad because I couldn’t perform it. So I eventually cried. Even during that time, I was very embarrassed because no matter how sad and frustrated I am, I shouldn’t have shown it on stage. Looking back on it now, I feel embarrassed that I couldn’t control my emotions.

Even during the second day, I couldn’t adapt well. The concert went well, and I was happy to see everyone, but I couldn’t focus well. That’s why I feel sorry and apologetic towards the fans in London. I want to come back again to show you something even better than what I had prepared.

After all of it happened, I took some time to think to myself – to calm myself. I meditated. I realized that I still have a long way to go. I think all of this was another step in my life that will help me become more mature. Bygones be bygones. I think the answer is to do the best that I can at what I’m doing now.

I usually don’t drink before the day of performance but I had a lot of feelings piled up inside me so I drank a lot yesterday. I came back to my room and thought to myself more before I passed out.

The more I thought about it, I realized that I shouldn’t be so concerned about it. I just need to enjoy where I am right now and give positive vibes to my members. If I can’t dance, than I should give my 100% through vocals. The answer was to just do my best in that situation.

There were more negative parts about it than positive, but there was one good aspect of my incident. I didn’t have a lot of vocal lessons before. I would just sing, listen to myself, sing a long, and practice in that way.

When you’re standing still, you can focus on your vocals better. But when you’re dancing, it’s hard to focus on your vocals. I was able to experiment more and focus on my singing because I was sitting down during the concerts. That was the good part of the whole incident.

You guys don’t have to worry. I’m okay. I’m still young so I’m healing well. So don’t worry, everyone.”

— Jungkook